picking up the pieces

i have always been the person that people runs to for advice. they said that i have a different view about things. somehow i thought they were right. time came that i was so down and hurt. i had no one to turn to. that's when i realize that the things i have said to others are the same thing that i had to do. i never imagined how hard it is. this time i said to myself, i had a dose of my own medicine. the advices that i have long thought before giving them to my friends are the hardest to fulfill. the pain, the suffering and the tears took me to a very wonderful place. a place where only i can make myself happy. but in this place i was alone. i saw a boy that helped to build my small simple world. it was later when i realized that as he was helping me build my sanctuary i was slowly starting to have him as my world. this was not a part of my plan. this wasn't supposed to happen. but i liked it. i didnt feel so alone in my world anymore. i had a person to share it with. and i wanted him to stay there forever. .