not contented. .

i simply don't understand why some people tend to be not contented. they have caused you so much pain and suffering but still they are still the ones that cant get enough of hurting you more. no matter how many times you try to ignore them time will still come when you have already had enough. you cant help but say mean things back simply to assure yourself that you're not a loser. the things they tell you will go straight to your soul but you need to not let them get into you for you're own well-being. the last thing you need is a person that will make you think less of yourself. but as they all say everyone has their limits. time will come that you can no longer take the things that they say of you. you may forget the values you have due to anger and hurt. but one lesson i learned is that no matter what other people say about you, what's important is that you know yourself and that you know that you never hurt anyone to reach what you have today.

picking up the pieces

i have always been the person that people runs to for advice. they said that i have a different view about things. somehow i thought they were right. time came that i was so down and hurt. i had no one to turn to. that's when i realize that the things i have said to others are the same thing that i had to do. i never imagined how hard it is. this time i said to myself, i had a dose of my own medicine. the advices that i have long thought before giving them to my friends are the hardest to fulfill. the pain, the suffering and the tears took me to a very wonderful place. a place where only i can make myself happy. but in this place i was alone. i saw a boy that helped to build my small simple world. it was later when i realized that as he was helping me build my sanctuary i was slowly starting to have him as my world. this was not a part of my plan. this wasn't supposed to happen. but i liked it. i didnt feel so alone in my world anymore. i had a person to share it with. and i wanted him to stay there forever. .